No shining glow

Right now
Is difficult to appreciate
A miracle
It's there
Under layers of unease
Cushioned in beats
That feel foreign to me

608

I know you're trying

I know you mean well
You mean to make it better
"Tell me what you want to hear,"
Is the last thing I want to hear

607

Yesterday's Today

Did it happen
Or was it a dream
That forgot to begin?

606

What will you hold, Today?

Tumult
Momentary calm
Unknowns
Change
Who knows?

605

Down

And we all fell down again
Which hurts
Everyone

Holding me up

604

A little change

Today,
Was a little different
Than the breath of
The last few days
Fresher
Less painful
Free

603

A Relief

I welcome even the slightest
whiff
of full breath
with relief

602

Just over the hill

I know you're right there
Just over this bend
And around that curve
Your elusive glimpses
Don't leave me with doubt
I know you're there
Waiting patiently
For me to come around

601

A First Time For Everything

Dear Tomorrow,

I hope your days brim with promises of firsts and the wisdom of been-theres.

I dream of mountains that will build you up and will fight for rivers to quench your goals.

I distress over extinct moments that have left no room for change.

I know a lot is not right now. And tomorrow, however wrong it may be, ought to be here already.

There's a struggle, I know you will see, one I hope you will not live. A struggle that upheaves into calloused hands and falls weary into broken arms.

There's much to wish for you. There's much to hope for the world that will be yours someday.

For now, I hope my first will be for a better you.

Lovingly,
Suparna

600

9 courses

It's a pure delight
And such incredible
Privilege
To sit among friends,
Well wishers
Who care
And want to celebrate
With 9
Delectable
Courses

599

Can I do it?

It's moments like these
I really doubt myself
Every speck of me feels out

598

I can do it!

It rises
Slow enough
For me to dread
It's oncoming

But not as fast
As I'd like it to

These days my mind gushes with memories of tomorrow
And hopes of yesterday
I long for this to be over
Yet to savor every second
Knowing there is a specialness
To all the pain

597

Back

And it's back
With full vengeance
Upon my insides

596

The Light

A little glimmer of hope
Shone through
Such tepid curtains
Of darkness

595

Unintended disappointment

Not meant to
But it happened
The first of probably many
That will sting, burn, and cling
With sadness
Even
If
Unintended

594

It gets better

I know it does
But right now
It's hard to remember

593

Miracles

Small breaths
Transform
Drops of timelessness
Into big miracles
Beyond our reach

592

Worries

There are always going to be reasons
To lose sleep
To indulge a wreckless train of thought
Fueling the motions of worried nights
Anxious days
And there's only one sensible reason to stop:
You.

591

What a day

Dear Dan,

Thank you for being there and loving me like you love blueberries.

Love you,
Suparna

590

Will you remember?

This was the day
That it erupted
And all broke lose
To give way to
Openness
And honesty
Will you remember?

589

A different day 2

Didn't get punched today
That made for a better day 2

588

First Days

Nerves too passed me by
Till there was just plain old joy
Untarnished and free

587

How did we get into this mess?

What have we come to
That has allowed a bigot
To make it to this point?
Has our world got nothing left fighting for?

586

Can I do this?

I ask myself everyday
If I'm ready for what lies ahead
Sometimes though
Life doesn't wait for your response
And goes ahead
With its own strong-willed plan anyway
So,
I am left with the choice to crumble
Or rise

585

The last ginger squash bottle

The last ginger squash bottle
Was put on hold for me
Though just a simple sugar concentrate
Of ginger and lemon extracts,
And capsicum color it may be
It signifies much -

A momentary craving
Leading to extensive research
Rechecking ingredients
Calling shops
And finding
The last ginger squash bottle

Privilege wrapped on a moment's notice
Being with family who
Support, love, and care
Stability to afford a craving
The luxury of time and ability for
The last ginger squash bottle

584

What a day

Being able to sit
And watch waves go by
That's my type of today

583

Don't Give Up

Sia told us today
To
Not give up
No, no, no
Remember,
To not ever give up

582

Slow it down

Is it too much to ask
To slow all of this down
So we can take in every
Single waking moment
And capture every single
Sleeping breath
And one day,
Tell you all about it

581

A Better World

Surely there is one
A better world for us all
Maybe just hiding

580

A N(e)ice Request

There are times when
My heart smiles
And mind soars
With love and kindness
Children brighten this world

579

Moms

I feel lucky
To have two to call mine
There to hug and hold
Through rain and shine

They are mine
And I love them so
Always there for me
Through any high or low

My moms are my anchors
Grateful to have two
To my mommies, I say
I love you!

578