Monday, October 31, 2016

No shining glow

Right now
Is difficult to appreciate
A miracle
It's there
Under layers of unease
Cushioned in beats
That feel foreign to me


Sunday, October 30, 2016

I know you're trying

I know you mean well
You mean to make it better
"Tell me what you want to hear,"
Is the last thing I want to hear


Yesterday's Today

Did it happen
Or was it a dream
That forgot to begin?


Friday, October 28, 2016

Wednesday, October 26, 2016

A little change

Was a little different
Than the breath of
The last few days
Less painful


Tuesday, October 25, 2016

A Relief

I welcome even the slightest
of full breath
with relief


Monday, October 24, 2016

Just over the hill

I know you're right there
Just over this bend
And around that curve
Your elusive glimpses
Don't leave me with doubt
I know you're there
Waiting patiently
For me to come around


Sunday, October 23, 2016

A First Time For Everything

Dear Tomorrow,

I hope your days brim with promises of firsts and the wisdom of been-theres.

I dream of mountains that will build you up and will fight for rivers to quench your goals.

I distress over extinct moments that have left no room for change.

I know a lot is not right now. And tomorrow, however wrong it may be, ought to be here already.

There's a struggle, I know you will see, one I hope you will not live. A struggle that upheaves into calloused hands and falls weary into broken arms.

There's much to wish for you. There's much to hope for the world that will be yours someday.

For now, I hope my first will be for a better you.



Saturday, October 22, 2016

9 courses

It's a pure delight
And such incredible
To sit among friends,
Well wishers
Who care
And want to celebrate
With 9


Friday, October 21, 2016

Can I do it?

It's moments like these
I really doubt myself
Every speck of me feels out


Thursday, October 20, 2016

I can do it!

It rises
Slow enough
For me to dread
It's oncoming

But not as fast
As I'd like it to

These days my mind gushes with memories of tomorrow
And hopes of yesterday
I long for this to be over
Yet to savor every second
Knowing there is a specialness
To all the pain


Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

The Light

A little glimmer of hope
Shone through
Such tepid curtains
Of darkness


Monday, October 17, 2016

Unintended disappointment

Not meant to
But it happened
The first of probably many
That will sting, burn, and cling
With sadness


Sunday, October 16, 2016

Saturday, October 15, 2016


Small breaths
Drops of timelessness
Into big miracles
Beyond our reach



There are always going to be reasons
To lose sleep
To indulge a wreckless train of thought
Fueling the motions of worried nights
Anxious days
And there's only one sensible reason to stop:


Thursday, October 13, 2016

What a day

Dear Dan,

Thank you for being there and loving me like you love blueberries.

Love you,


Wednesday, October 12, 2016

Will you remember?

This was the day
That it erupted
And all broke lose
To give way to
And honesty
Will you remember?


Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Monday, October 10, 2016

First Days

Nerves too passed me by
Till there was just plain old joy
Untarnished and free


Sunday, October 9, 2016

How did we get into this mess?

What have we come to
That has allowed a bigot
To make it to this point?
Has our world got nothing left fighting for?


Saturday, October 8, 2016

Can I do this?

I ask myself everyday
If I'm ready for what lies ahead
Sometimes though
Life doesn't wait for your response
And goes ahead
With its own strong-willed plan anyway
I am left with the choice to crumble
Or rise


Friday, October 7, 2016

The last ginger squash bottle

The last ginger squash bottle
Was put on hold for me
Though just a simple sugar concentrate
Of ginger and lemon extracts,
And capsicum color it may be
It signifies much -

A momentary craving
Leading to extensive research
Rechecking ingredients
Calling shops
And finding
The last ginger squash bottle

Privilege wrapped on a moment's notice
Being with family who
Support, love, and care
Stability to afford a craving
The luxury of time and ability for
The last ginger squash bottle


Thursday, October 6, 2016

What a day

Being able to sit
And watch waves go by
That's my type of today


Don't Give Up

Sia told us today
Not give up
No, no, no
To not ever give up


Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Slow it down

Is it too much to ask
To slow all of this down
So we can take in every
Single waking moment
And capture every single
Sleeping breath
And one day,
Tell you all about it


Monday, October 3, 2016

Sunday, October 2, 2016

A N(e)ice Request

There are times when
My heart smiles
And mind soars
With love and kindness
Children brighten this world


Saturday, October 1, 2016


I feel lucky
To have two to call mine
There to hug and hold
Through rain and shine

They are mine
And I love them so
Always there for me
Through any high or low

My moms are my anchors
Grateful to have two
To my mommies, I say
I love you!