Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Numbers

30 years ago
31-1-1987
3:13am
Here I am
1-31-2017
22.5 weeks in
There you are
Beating at 154 bpm
All of you
Is in all of me
Every step you take
A milestone away from me
What numbers will be a part
Of your journey
5 days of celebration
To commemorate 10,950
And then some

700

Monday, January 30, 2017

So much love

Dear Little One,

So much love
Was sent your way today
By all who inspire
In every way

I hope all this love
Made it all the way
To you and your little self
Today and each day

I love you,
Suparna

699

Sunday, January 29, 2017

A little up, a little down

This world is too confusing for me to wrap my heart around. I want to make sense of it. Want to feel less divided, less alienated, less disgusted, less powerless. But it's tricky. Feeling less of those feelings is on me, but it would mean turning away from and not knowing what's happening. I don't know how to not have a vicseral pained response to how the world is changing. I don't know how to guard and fight and move on all the once. I don't know if I have it in me. I don't know if knowing others, many many others are hurting too, is easier for me. The self is what becomes a part of the collective. But what does one do when the self is feeling defeated?

698

My cup is overflowing

How do you measure
A day filled with
This much love?

Should I extend my arms
As far as they will reach?

Should I stand on my tippy toes
And aim for the stars with the tips of my fingers?

So much love for all my loves
And my heart is beaming

697

Friday, January 27, 2017

61

Here you are
On the brink of a brand new old adventure
What will it be this year?
Different than the last?
I hope for that
And many more to come your way

696

Thursday, January 26, 2017

Done, done, done

Somehow it's all done!
I'm getting better
Each day
Knowing how much
Knowing me
Knowing when to say
I can
No way
And learning to know me
My limits
My lines of being
Beyond which
I know I will collapse
It's hard though
Even though I've fallen
Too many times to count

Slowly though,
I'm learning

695

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

Knowing

How to know what I will be
Who, where, or when will I be
Down the road

I do know I'm going to love you
And probably not
Want to let go off you

694

Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Wisdom

I know you're not fully out of your confines
So there's some question
If you're really that wise
Or just some late blooming teeth?

693

Monday, January 23, 2017

Sigh

Sit down
Breathe out
This relief
Will leave you whole
Let it
It's beautiful
And I like the way
It holds me

692

Sunday, January 22, 2017

The pleasure of beets

Dal, chawal, sabji
Quinoa with beet greens
Roasted beets and cauliflower
The most delicious?
Doing it with you by my side
Creating memories side-by-side with flavor

691

Saturday, January 21, 2017

Please be okay too

So much unknown
Rests silently in between
Momentary certainties
That's all it really is about
Those momentary certainties
The lessons they leave us with
To cope with lurking unknowns

690

Friday, January 20, 2017

Please be okay

So much to be grateful for
Yet life is such a fragile mess
Just as the delicate wings
Of the moth know
They're moments away from
Becoming dust
Such is the sense of knowing
And becoming
That we must all come to terms with

689

Thursday, January 19, 2017

Breather

A little sigh
Here and there
To relieve us
Of the weight we carry
That no one,
But we, ourselves out on
Our fragile shoulders

688

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Heads

Yes, it's a part of life
Yes, I understand
No, I'm not okay with it
I don't know if I
Will ever be

687

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Done!

That feeling of making it
All the way to the top
Leaves me with
The promise of a good night's sleep

686

Monday, January 16, 2017

Holding On

If I could
I would
Keep you
Forever and
Always here
Right here
But life's
Not so

685

Sunday, January 15, 2017

Dangal

Why fight
When you can take a walk through
A mall
And hold hands till
The sun sets

684

Luxuries

The solitude of timelessness
When caught off guard
Is different
Spirited
As moments melt into hours
And your arm into mine
Each breath is a gift

683

Friday, January 13, 2017

Sahra ho, dariya ho

Dear Sweet Tomorrow,

You are filling me up
And I love it
I love that we share
Wonder
Dreams
Sleep (though sometimes you're not too happy with when I'm ready to sleep!)
Blood
And space
I'm so honored to know you
As grow together

I love you,
Suparna

682

Thursday, January 12, 2017

Pumpkin

You moved
I saw
And most importantly
I felt

I sometimes try to wrap
My head around the thought
That you're already
A person

You
All of you
Is inside
Me

681

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Kind strong loving

You are going to be
Kind-hearted
Strong
Magnanimous
Loving
Caring
Not afraid to be
You

And I can't wait to meet you.

680

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Out of a cycle?

Am I just pedaling
Backwards
To make up for someone
Else's lack of courage
To move ahead?

679

Monday, January 9, 2017

These are a few of my favorite days

When the sounds of rain
Lull you out of broken
Tired sleep
And kind people
Give you flexibility
And you're surrounded
By all you love
As you trudge
Through what's necessary
These are my favorite days

678

Sunday, January 8, 2017

10:58am

We saw you
In there
Moving about

He got to see you too

And it's really something else

Knowing you are in there
Moving
Being
Changing
Getting ready

As we
Do the same

677

Saturday, January 7, 2017

Waqt

Fearless
In its movements

Unapologetic
Why would it be to answer to anyone?

Ephemeral
Yet ageless in its existence

Present
Yet wholly birthed from the past

Charging
Towards tomorrow

676

Friday, January 6, 2017

Ek Aaghosh

Just one
Is all it takes
In that moment
Time freezes
And I squeeze my eyes shut
As tightly as I wish I could
Squeeze you
And hold on to each
Inch of you

But then we wouldn't be us
And fleeting moments
Would become norm

Would that be so bad though?

675

Thursday, January 5, 2017

7 years

Dear Danny,

I wish I could capture
All of what I feel
In a few pithy lines.
Or show you
With a gesture or two
Just what it is you
Mean to me.

But that would leave me
With so many empty spaces
To let you know
Just how much you still
Rock my entire world
Off its axis
And still spin me
In all the right directions

7 years since that sunny day
And you are still
My only one

Who nobody changes

To 7 more,
Tumharee

674

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Dear Head

Dear Head,

Will you try to hear me out? I'm trying. I'm doing everything I can and know to care for you. What else can I do?

Suparna

673

You're braver than you know

Dear Tomorrow,

One day, we'll talk about tough decisions, being honest, and finding courage to be true to yourself. On that day, I'll tell you about today. I was honest and it was hard. But you, Tomorrow, are my priority.

Lovingly,
Suparna

672

Monday, January 2, 2017

Back Home

When your new home
Begins to feel like home
It's a good feeling

Like one of being home.

When your view of your city
From up above,
Makes you feel grounded,
That's a good feeling.

671

Sunday, January 1, 2017

2017, The year of...

If I were on Jupiter,
My year would feel different
365 would be just another set
Of three digits

But,
I am of this Earth
That means I get to begin
A brand new beginning

This year will bring
Many news
Renew olds
And will go on regardless of me

Whatever it may be
I reserve the right to
Hope
And wish for this year

670

Another End

Here we go again
Another arbitrary cycle of time
Wound to an end
Such a year...

Of transience,
Change,
Hope,
Fear,
Falling down,
Staying down,
Slowly rising,
Westward bound,
Disappointments,
Injuries,
New lives,
New dreams,
New places,
New beginnings

669