Friday, August 31, 2018

Goodbye August

Days filled with heat
That we hardly felt
And nights of cooling breeze
That we came to know a bit
New moments
Plane trips
Goodbyes
And so many hellos
New firsts
It's been a long one
So with love and joy,
I say goodbye

1069

Thursday, August 30, 2018

Good Times. Old Times.

It's almost as though
No time has elapsed
Yet here we are
With 3 more in tow
Still anchored by
Memories of cooking
Dancing
Singing
Late night surprising
Exploring
Loving and more

1068

Wednesday, August 29, 2018

And Done

It happened so fast
Yet took so long
And such a village to make it happen

1067

Tuesday, August 28, 2018

Call to Conscience

We were all called
To stand up tall
As we witnessed our own privilege
Of being on this side of the wall
To unpack all of this
Is to sit with all this trauma
That we have made others endure

1066

Monday, August 27, 2018

Where Were We?

Dear Manzil,

Today you were on your own
No mamma or daddy
mamma was off talking to communities
And Daddy off teaching geometry
I know it's new
And I know you're being brave
And maybe you even wondered
Where we were

Right here. Always with you,
Us

1065

Sunday, August 26, 2018

Little Legs

I can still see it
When you stood so bold
And moved with your new found courage
The world had nothing on you

The world has nothing on you
But it'll sure try
It'll try to bring you down
To its deepest most rocky core

Its deepest most rocky core
Will on its best days
Threaten to swallow you whole
Maybe even stifle the air out of you

The air out of you may try to leave
But you run after it, grab it, and swallow it whole
Just like life itself, just like your first little run
On your two little legs

1064

Saturday, August 25, 2018

Gotta Face It

Dear Manzil,

There will be a lot of things you don't like about me. And even though I don't get a vote, I do hope you will like about me that I work hard to spreal directly to people. Especially to those I care deeply about.

I love you,
Mamma

1063

Friday, August 24, 2018

Soy

What flavor will you be today?
A little sugary dream sprinkled in
Will add to your deliciousness
And I can't wait to eat you up

1062

Betadine

You fell
And it made my heart leap
I thought you were two feet
Stumbling in your errors
Finding your way in the dark

1061

Wednesday, August 22, 2018

Assumptions

You never learned to give the benefit
Of your doubt
Doing dubious things
With no one to question your
Authenticity

1060

Tuesday, August 21, 2018

That's a crazy question

No questions are stupid
But some questions are crazy
Especially when asked
When the answer is not something
You're ready to hear

1059

New Sights, Old Eyes

I see you
In ways I hadn't before
In ways I want sure I needed to
And certainly didn't want to
And you showed me new things
That opened my old eyes

1058

Sunday, August 19, 2018

Why are you here?

Your ableism allows you
To be here
Or maybe my classism questions it

1057

Saturday, August 18, 2018

Better

It could've been better
But that means that I now can see
That I'm better
And that I see myself as better
Than I've ever been

1056

Friday, August 17, 2018

Alliance

I never learned
How to notice
The good things
When good things happened
I was too busy counting down
To the next bad one
To relish in the good
But you said
Life's too short
To only soak in the bad
And I need to learn to listen

1055

Thursday, August 16, 2018

Mystery

You were just standing there
Alert
Alerting us off your presence
Flashy and beaten down
As unsure as I
About what do next

1054

Wednesday, August 15, 2018

So Full of You

You know how my happiest of places is
Somewhere I go with my eyes closed?
Floating in water so clear
I can count the number of stripes on that fish
The air smells wet
It tastes so sweet
I want to let it swallow me whole
But I don't
There won't be me anymore
To make this place my half
Place

1053

Tuesday, August 14, 2018

Biting My Nose

Do you realize how
much you make me smile when
you giggle and take my nose in
your mouth
It refines my sense of smell
And hones my sense of humor

1052

Monday, August 13, 2018

I Expect

It was born when a little part of me
Died
Still, I decided I needed to rise
Because
I know I can

1051

Forgotten

Exhaustion and excitement are
Indeed so close
They both let a person forget
Where one started
In excited exhaustion
Or exhausting excitement

1050

Cousins

What is the root of this friendship
That is bonded by birth
And bounded by life
Will it see itself into the future
Or quietly shrivel inside

1049

Revisit

The center of a mandala
Is the same place that stores
My beating heart
It's the base of the tallest mountain
The edge of the harshest of oceans
Right before the floor falls
And my feet have to decide
To wade or give in

1048

Friday, August 10, 2018

You Will See Too

It's taking me a while
I've had to find the perfect
Prescription
And still there are days
When I just cannot see
I look at you from every angle
I stand on my head
I peek under elbows
Are you even there?

1047

Thursday, August 9, 2018

I'll Try

I promise I do
Everyday
For a while now
I wake up
Earnest in my attempts
And I go to bed
Promising myself to try harder
The question I have though is,
Will you?

1046

Wednesday, August 8, 2018

What's Your Intent?

Last I checked,
I needed no saving
I didn't need a website telling me how
to raise a kind human
I do need some tools to tell
People like you to mind your own business
And maybe even
To save yourself
Do you know where I can find that?

1045

Demented

Will you remember me
When you start to leave me
Will my voice echo somewhere in your mind
Even as I work on quieting down

1044

Monday, August 6, 2018

Learning to Sleep

Such a small thing
We learn to avoid it
Disrespect it
Pretend like it doesn't mean much
Revere it, hell, even crave it
We learn to share it
Give it
And struggle to find it
But never have I appreciated it more than
Watching you learn to do it

1043

Saturday, August 4, 2018

Keep your pants on

What is it about you men
That you can't share?
You can't handle divided attention
Even though you've got your balls on you
Your incapable of producing much
Does that piss you off?
Make you want to show me who's boss?
You're the one tied up though
As I walk free

1041

Friday, August 3, 2018

I Saw You

Last night
You arrived in you form
But also not
And it was the not that makes me want to see you again
But it's the you that reminds me to run

So tonight, I'll run

1040

Thursday, August 2, 2018

Nomad

Maybe there will never be
A place I can call mine
And maybe it won't matter
Because I have places that call me theirs

1039

Wednesday, August 1, 2018

Souls and Cups

If I still lived here
Would I still be as flooded with
Happy memories
Or would the struggles blind me
So neither soul nor cup were filled?

1038