Saturday, September 29, 2018

Stay

Yesterday,
I asked you to come back
Begged
What can I do to
Make you stay?

1098

Friday, September 28, 2018

Come Back

I want you to know
That if you want to wake up
We'll all be here
We're all here
We love you
And are rooting for you
Come back

1097

Doing It All

I did it
Even though I told myself I couldn't
Even though everyone said I couldn't
It still happened
So I know it can be done
But at the expense of what

1096

Wednesday, September 26, 2018

You Did It!

It took about 15 days
And it may sound trivial
But 15 days times 30 minutes times all the tears
you shed
Times the piercing volume of your scream
Times your nonstop screams
Equals a little piece of my heart breaking each day
But today, you did it
I walked in anticipating my heart breaking
But instead, it soared because
You did it

1095

Tuesday, September 25, 2018

Help Me If You Can

If you could
I really really would
Appreciate your little something
To get me by
On a high
All the way
Over there
To feel like you care
Is only fair
So my dear Dan
Help me if you can

1094

Monday, September 24, 2018

Knee

How is it possible
For you to just this way
So much that I can't feel my leg
Or my back
You own my body
Its pain
And I paid a lot for it

1093

Stood Up

Not my
It's you
Still, my heart broke a little
And I bought flowers to repair it

1092

Saturday, September 22, 2018

Watered Up

I wish I could find all of the words
In all of the world
To tell you just how it felt
To feel bubbles the size of buses being popped on your head
To hear the sea lions bark with my ear hugging yours
To feel our hair moist from our own sweat and the ocean below
Stuck to our faces and the backs of our necks
I'm really struggling to find the words
So I guess these will just have to do

1091

Friday, September 21, 2018

I'm lost

I didn't realize it
That I was never really found
And the woods are so deep
I don't remember ever setting foot in them

1090

Thursday, September 20, 2018

Namaste

You're ready to say so much
And yet you are holding it in
You reserve your words in loud exclamations
Ready for any occasion

1089

Wednesday, September 19, 2018

Jimbo

That's so funny
You said
Through tears that didn't seem remotely happy

1088

Time to Go

You reek
Even when I air you out
Even when I scrub every inch of you
You torment me
And you must go

1087

Monday, September 17, 2018

Nothing in Here

Each day is such a mighty act
Of just getting by
And getting through
Without completely losing it

1086

Sunday, September 16, 2018

Cisterhood

I didn't ever realize I was looking
I didn't know what I didn't have
I hadn't seen what I couldn't find
Until I found you

1085

Are You Concerned?

Does it bother you
When we're headed in the wrong direction
And you didn't realize
Or do you pretend unit didn't notice and keep moving
Just in case you stumble into righteousness?

1084

Friday, September 14, 2018

Look At Me

A few years ago
I couldn't say this
Was remotely possible
So much would've come in the way
Mostly me, I would've come in my way
And lost sleep and been disappointed
And disappointed
But all I can say now is
Hey
Look at me

1083

Thursday, September 13, 2018

How Low?

Really, how low is too low
Before you crumble and let go?

1082

Stuck Still

I can't feel my feet anymore
I've been standing with my feet dig in for so long
It's hard and sticky, this ground
I wish it were the golden sand
Being drowned by relentless yet gentle waves
But, no
This is quicksand
This is tar
This is a mess
And I'm stuck

1081

Tuesday, September 11, 2018

Cold like an Avalanche

I was trying so hard not to catch it
Tried to slow down
Tried to catch my breath
But every time
My feet caught up
And I caught it

1080

Birthdays

Another one come and gone
Will you chase it
As it runs far far away from you?

1079

Sunday, September 9, 2018

Sisterhood

All it has ever taken
Is
One woman standing up for
Another
All it ever takes is for one
To hold the other up

1078

Saturday, September 8, 2018

High Energy

Dear M,

I love all of you,
I love that part of you that's all energy
I love that part of you that's ready to explore
I hope you never change
I hope you always know

You light up my world,
Mamma

1077

Choices

Even in the face of absolute terror
We have it in us to find a speck of beauty
And that little speck sometimes
Is all we get to
Hold on to
And nurture till it becomes a flame

1076

Thursday, September 6, 2018

New Things

Dear Bumpy,

We miss you everyday! You were our first and you have seen us through so much. Today, we got a new thing. It looks like you, but different. We remembered you and miss you.

Thank you.

1075

Wednesday, September 5, 2018

ER

I thought another one of you was about to pop out
And the pain caused nausea
And the pain made my arms numb
And the pain made me hyperventilate
Till I thought I was going to pass out

1074

Tuesday, September 4, 2018

I am worth it

Sometimes I feel unworthy of my dreams
That I see in the secrecy of my sleep
Soo, especially on the mornings after
I work with myself
Persuading myself
That I'm worth every glimmering
Speck of my dream

1073

Monday, September 3, 2018

Hold Tight

On Friday night
I thought to myself
Monday night was so far
Last night
It had sprung up on me
Before I had the chance to soak it all in
To hold tight

1072

Sunday, September 2, 2018

Open Up

I learn to give birth to such beauty
Whenever I open up to the unknown
Like bringing a being into life
And out into the world
Through a mere opening of what is used to being shut tight
And so much beauty can come
Feeling opening doors that have always been closed

1071

Villagers

Thanks for being there
So we don't have to
Do this
Alone
Even though we have some a rather decent job
Of pretending we can
So far
At least

1070